Zidane is the man !!!!!

hahahahaa..those who watched the World Cup final match .....Zidane !!!! you are da man !!! haahhahahahahahahahahhahaa. That fella go "tanduk" the Italian players in the chest ! CLASSIC MAN !!!! hahahahahahaha

It was a nice experience watching at klang@ Berkeley Corner, with so many both side supporters wearing jerseys, and can't avoid having some annoying malays making stupid shoutings and blowing "trumpets" and "banging tables".... ish ishhh

It was a tiring weekend. Friday nite as usual was badminton. The competition didnt continue this week as many were absent. Good also...hahaha...Saturday. Started off with breakfast at Chi Liung, then off down to KL@Nikko Hotel for Aldy's convocation. Then it was shopping spree for the girls at KLCC the whole day, while the guys...teman. hahahahahah..but it was fun for kena warned twice for curi curi taking pics posing in the shops..checking out all the ah kua's, betting with CJ whether the sales gal is Chinese or Japanese, playing "who's eye blink first" in the car, shout shout for no reasons and the usuals craps and craps...haha..Made the way back to Klang around 8..and decided to catch the midnite show for Superman. Tickets were out...duhh..but we took the risk to come back again at 25 mins before the show starts for the release tickets...and yea yeahh..we got it...9 tickets..in a row ! middle seat somemore ! hahaha.. Superman was...so so...nice camera angles ...but dunno..overall..dun really like ...dissappointed ler. Reached home at 3am, and managed to catch the 2nd half of the match between Germany and Portugal :[p

What did i did on Sunday ? woke up at 2pm. Stoned, makan, slept back again at 3pm. Woke up at 5pm. Chat online, play guitar, out for dinner@Pelita. Then the final match football craze..ehhehe

Well, no more reasons for late night staying up jorr..hahahaha...have a great week ahead everyone !!

Supernova

Fish from the Baby Seafood dinner yesterday. Nice !!

Was watching Rockstar new series. This time searching a new frontman for a rock outfit Supernova.

One of the contestant was singing this song, Roxanne

David : " that shows...how limited your vocal range is.."

Gila kutuk ! ahahahaha...

Host is OUt !

OOHHHHH...NOOOOOOoooooOOOOOoooOOOOOOO !!!!!!!

2 goals in the last 2 minutes extra time !!!! WTFFFF !!!hahahahhaha

Germany is OUT !

dunno should be happy or sad..ahhahahahahaa

2 Cold Misty days ago

pictures courtesy thanks to Drew.

Month Planned Genting Trip

The chills :
- hitching the ride up to Genting with CW's Peugeot 407. Windows all fully tinted, can't see through...ubber cool ! hahahaha...
- Got free massage parlours...kononnya..but it was nice..ahahha
- Ice creams in the colds..hahahahaha
- walking through the thick cold mist 4am sipping coffee bean ice blended :)
- Me and KW managed to climb all the way up to the top on our 2nd attempt for rock climbing..cool man ! hahahaha
- WS and Aldy managed to join us last minute..heheheh
- Chilling with drew in the cold till dusk while the others are nicely sleeping..hahahaha



The Stupids :
- 24/7 sessions of stupidity craps and laughing over even stupid sound effects. Consequences : WS got stomach ache..hahahaaa
- KK told me later that the stranger couple behind was saying us " so so dei wan all" (crazy people all)
- up and down between Genting Hotel and First World with and without bags throughout the day at least more than 4 times...WTF weiiiii !!!!!! hahahahahaha...

The Potong Stims :
- Thean couldn't make it. Too bad man.
- The lost of England on Penalties. But the football fever atmosphere was superb !!!!
- The lost of Brazil. The lesson is : the ball is round ! hahahaa
- I have to share a sofa pillow with Drew...$!#$%!@#%# hahahahahaa
- The McD stranger in front queuing, "shouldn't you guys ask the person in front if he/she will allow you to do so first ? (to order food through friend) " beh tahan....
- have to bear with Bulat keep saying how loveable JJ (they went for his concert) was...aiskkkks...ahahha..jk jk jk



I had a damn nice and fun weekend with the kura-kuraians !!

more pictures coming up soon i guessed.hehhehe

24th June

Signed

Oohh, he signed already
thought it would be kinda tricky
maybe im just thinking silly
but after what happened lately
you cant blame me for extra thinking

two more signings we are done
good to know you are almost gone
whatever happens there's no return
i hope you won't rot in your own world

Maybe i still care maybe i don't
hope time will makes you know
how much we've done to cover you
how much we've overlooked just to keep you
how your ego had actually killed you
how dissappointed we are to believe in you
how dissappointed we are to heard those from you

Tomolo will never die ?
maybe..
I hear first..
You never know..
god bless you..
good luck to you..

Antabax

Friday Nite :
2nd week of Badminton Competition. Be the referee for a match, and won the mix double match !! wuahahhaa..at first lost the first game, but won the 2 games later.. and of course there are the singles and doubles match winners and losers :) nice game guys !!

Saturday :
Had quick lunch at Secret Recipe, catch CARS at 1:20pm. CARS is abit like ROBOT, new experience and new concept. And although quite predictable, i like the ending very much. Finished the movie, went for Thai food fest. Nasi Mangga, TomYam, Otak-Otak and fried fried stuffs..great food ! shopped for stuffs for the BBQ later that night.

Went home, had a very short nap. Woke up late, but still in time to do fruit salad. Honestly, my first time..hahahahaha...took almost an hour to nicely cut a whole honey dew, 5 pears, 5 apples, 5 red jambus and soak grapes, but it turn out not too bad i guess..ahhahaha..

The funniest part is we were going to have a BBQ party without chicken !!!!coz everywhere is marinated chicken wings is out of stocks !! hahaha..but luckily drew got stock left from the previous night, so we still have chicken wings at least. Well, it was a nice session except it rain abit. Doesn't matter though.

The rest left after midnite except me and WS. While me and Drew have some not so legal stuffs. Laughed and stoned the night away....hahahaha..but still managed to go for nasi lemak and catch the match between Argentina and Mexico :p

Sunday :
Bulat, my mouth muscle so numb from the 4 hours sessions of craps lehh..hahahaha..okla..not too crap, not too serious stuffs either. Catch the match between England and Ecuador with friends later that night..so whats next ? DO WORK !!!! @$!#%$@!#%^@#$^%@$

hahahahahahahaha... :P

Tree

Bad things never last long,
because soon it will be long gone

Good things never last long,
else you wouldn't feel the chemistry
else you wouldn't feel the magic

Not pushing, not facing, not hiding
not dissappointed, not sad, not too happy

Dose of shootings, when i'm busy
Dose of shoutings, when i'm happy
Dose of smileys, when i'm needy

Life can be sucky and crappy
but i wouldn't want to change a lil thing like this

Monday Midnight Morning Blues

4hrs...1 hrs ; ...2 hours....15 mins ; and the war still not ended

sometimes to choose or not to choose is not really important
take everything as a lesson learnt .
Get numb to the lesson, might be good, might not be good.

Somehow,
voices that keeps me going
voices that makes me feel better
voices that unintentionally cracks me up
voices that makes me happy
voices of caring

somehow,
it wasn't that bad after all :)

I hate Monday !

Friday nite :
- very pissed off with KHF jor...
- had the best pork chop rice ever !
- won the group badminton competition, singles, against Thean..yea yeahh ! but its only the first round btw.
- had "fu" cha. No big deal la. And the usual "kampung" sessions after badminton.

Saturday :
- Went up for a job but was pushed to Monday. Should have went for Tokyo Drift with the gang. Damn
- 2 hours band practise at noon.
- chill the rest of the noon with Sutesh. Spent more than an hour carrying equipments, walking ups and downs.
- First performance with my band at Fete de la Musique @Bangsar Telawi Street. I don't think we played well, but it was our first anyway. And it was cool and fun ! hahahaha...
- thousands thanks to Picha for staying up and helping us take pictures ! chun man ! hahah
- Yumchar with Vee and Keong after the show. Practically dozing off..
- one of the most fun but damn tiring day

Sunday :
- Woke up an hour late for brunch. Well, bulat is late too..haha
- From just 3, end up 7 of us went up Flea Market @Mont Kiara together..hahaa..expected.
- met NTV7 crew , had some stupid fun, all of us won prizes..hahaha..wat the..
- took more than an hour to finish one round checking out all the stalls.
- bought a necklace pendant for 10 bucks..hahahahaa...nice nice
- kena forced to treat all of them mcD's sundae con..ishh..haha
- took quite some pictures with our hps. weird though..:p
- came back and took a short nap.
- last minute, decided to catch X-Men before it ended showing. Not too bad what the movie..
- got addicted to driving VIOS.
- just in time to watch the match between Brazil and Australia
- end result is 2 - 0. And i lost a movie ticket to WS...ish ishhhh...

Tomolo is Monday...i HATE ! ....!!!!!!

Fete de la Musique @Bangsar Telawi Street

Another gig coming up soon end of the month. Hehe..

17

Hanging out the whole day with 17 years old drummer boy does reminds you of your schooling days, what were you doing at his age, how were you thinking back then. The exams, the curfews, the parents, the tuitions, the SPMs, the weekly allowance, the excuses, the class teachers, the denda's and many more...i miss those carefree days..hahaha..not really carefree also..with all the exams ..hahahaha

Different excuses you get from a school boy
working people : got work laa..cannot..working overtime tonight ler..
schooling : cannot la, i got tuition. got homework to do tonight

working people : this month broke la..still waiting for end of the month gaji
schooling people: my mom didnt give me allowance today la, i only got few bucks with me.

working people : i damn hate my boss, forever giving me load of shits jobs
schooling people : my geography teacher gives me really damn alot of homework man !

working people : i only got 50 bucks left till end of this month
schooling people : i got 50 bucks to spend today, my dad gave this morning.

working people : i miss those schooling days man !
schooling people : i cant wait for holidays man !

Makes me feel old hanging out with him though. hahahaa... And sometimes we simply easily forgive him, knowing and understand as he is only 17yo, still fresh, still alot of rooms of improvement, still flexible, and most of all, always willing to take and learn.

I will give him another shot. But i dunno about the other party though. Hhmm...

The price of 3.10

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Thanks for the help, for the favour, for the calls, for the drop bys, for the tau fu fahs.. :)
yea..im still alive.



probably something that you will never get to keep...hahahahhaa..

Just Jam

I was late..thanks to the drummer..
I push open the bulky sound proof door
spacious, dim lights, awesome mood
We have 2 extra audience today
shit...what the..
Sutesh's bro and dad
who were to fetch him back after this

plug in adapters, plug in cable
tuning amplifiers, checking mics
getting myself ready
all the while trying not to look at the 2
pretend they weren't there

The atmosphere
so fucking silent and dim and chilly
a certain doubt on my head
will this be a better sessions

hat 1 hat 2 hat 3 hat4
Jam in the guitars and the drums !
Awesome feelings !
adrenaline rushing

still on the intro of guitars
thinking..
should i scream..or shouldnt i
will i freak both of them out
intro done verse in 2 secs
i close my eyes
catch the beat moment
catch my breath
legs on pedal for the clean
"watching down...imagine..."

I sang and i screamed
it was the best time of the night
upon seeing two of them nodding head to the beat
knowing we weren't running out tempo and tune

Bassist bitched drummer learned
guitarist got overwhelmed that his songs are finally so much better
counting down the days to come
he is ready for it anytime since 2 years ago

Scribbling

I forgot to take the lyric scrap. aiii...there goes 2 hours effort scribbling parts and parts....

insecure

What is this insecure feeling that everyone have ?

That what that you have done or tried to do will never be good enough, will never be impressive enough , or at worse, will never to be bothered enough to convince, to be recognise, or at least, to be remember.

That the past has taught you that, what a fucking great time of your life that you are having now might wouldn't last long. And you know you do try to cherish things, but you will still feel that you hadn't cherish it enough yet until it is over.

That you know a little too much of everything, you do not know where should you be standing. You become selfish.

That you will go around and play, making yourself believe in short terms, periods, but you know one day you will be going back to your roots, and to realise where is actually your real roots ?

that to witness what had happened or is happening to the people around you, you realised eventhough you pray hard enough, but who knows, it might still happen to you one day

that a harmless sentence from a friend can brings you down, pissed you off. They will never know what you've been through and how you tried to change things. In the same time, how a harmless word from you can bring someone down, stir things up.

that you are always asking for more, asking too much

insecure.

After a while, you feel numb
After a while, you can't be bothered yourself too much
After a while, you realised sometimes you are not being yourself enough

DRYE bullshits !

more D.R.Y.E bullshitsssss..ahhahaha

Picha :
Don't Roll Your Eggs
Don't Rape Your Eggs
Don't Ripe Your Eggs

Phoebe :
Don't Ram Your Eggs
Don't Rig Your Eggs
Don't Risk Your Ears
Don't Rape Your Ears

Don't Rasa Your Eggs !

Outside the Curve@ part II

This is like the 2nd time, the same gang, about the same time, also after ktv, snapping off pictures outside the Curve at 4:30am in the morning ! hahahahaa...

It was Fan Jean's birthday. Besides the usual fun, one highlight of the night is that me and Jak Jak singing off 4-5 indon songs in a row ! that was cool man ! hahahahaha...indon pun saya boleh !!! hahahahahaa...

Finally i did made the effort to come after the badminton with the gang. Else i would have miss out this fun :p


Take a normal group picture first. Whatever happens later, let it be whatever..haha.


this was Fan Jean's idea and i quite like it. hehe..


Freestyle yeaaa...


We spotted a trolley not far away...ABUSE !

I reached home at 6 the next morning.

Standing Wave

Jammed at this private studio, Standing Wave in Subang. Fucking much better than Jamstudio ! #%$@!#! will never wan to go Jamstudio anymore..duhhh

"What do you think ?
Where do you think i need to improve ?"

Was quite stunned when being asked this question. and was happy in the same time ! But was thinking who am i to judge it anyway.. luckily Taik was humble enough to answer it for me.. and i like that..haha..

No doubt he is GOOD. But just maybe came unprepared. And for the first time, someone said to me "hey, you got good vocals" ...ha...stoned ! maybe he was refering to the screamings..hahaha.

Looking forward to the next session in a week's time. I think something will eventually work out.


Alot asked...what is dryE ?
The name, dryE. I think it was 2 years back di la. Felt like my mind, ideas, enthusiasm, passion, everything dried out. So i just added an E behind..watever..i just like the name.hahaha..

Then later on, Jae Shen was kind enough to brainstorm some funny names from it..among one of it is my favourite though...

dryE - Don't Risk Your Eggs

ahahahahhaa...damn cool man ! maybe this is a much cooler explaination than the first one..but then it sounds like a punk band name abit. Well, if the other members felt akward, then maybe,

dryE - Don't Risk Your Ego

does it makes any senses ? i dunno. My english sucks...

Well..who knows, we might settle down with a different name though..see how things goes !

Road smile

i was about to step on my fuel pedal and drive. There was this one handicapped old man cycling across the road in front of me. He knows that i want to go straight and that he is blocking the road. He was trying to pass the road quickly. He was trying hard when he look over. I just look at him and smile....and he smiled back. And happily cycling off the road.

This is just a small scenario. I dunno what im trying to say here also..

I guess sometimes a smile can makes wonder. Guessed my simple makes him felt relieved. :)

No not enough

No time to change my expired driving license ...
No time to change my guitar strings ...
No time to fix my racquet strings ...
No time to buy my mic recorder ...
No time to write new riffs ...
Not enough time to sleep ...
Not enough to spend ...
No not enough ...

good things

Good things comes to those who waited...
good things come and goes...
good thing that stay with you long enough maybe its not the best
running out of good things then comes new good things
good things brings you new opportunity
the new good things might give you the same or more dissappointment
then perhaps the dissappointed good things may lead you to more good things
thus you will have new hope

a hope that makes my adrenaline rush and excited when i should be doing work

will it be another dissappointment again ?
i really hope not. but i will know soon
if things goes right i will push and struggle my best to breakthrough
if good things goes right the end of july will be the first breakthrough

Good things comes to those who waited..
i hope my turn have come...

3 2

"See... i told you my decision that time is not wrong. What i predicted happened. But i don't blame you at all. Im dissappointed as well... but we move on and learnt"

Good and bad things does happens in the same time. But sometimes, bad thing can be good thing also. Im much happier now with the outcome.

So dark the conman. Just totally dissappointed.

i-bands

got this on my mailbox... hhmmm....

hi.wanna ur songs 2b aired on d rtms' radios.ur songs have 2b screened out by d rtm.only passed songs will be aired.im trying to make all passed songs to b aired on all rtms' radios.ur also have to pay less than rm21 4 d fee test n admin.it is not a competition just my effort given to enhanced ug scene in malaysia.feel free to call me sophian at 0163355503

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Trails

24 hours and still going on

You know what, i was late for badminton last Friday
but you know what, that one hour men's play sweat enough to make my day

The same day, we watched Da Vinci Code on a Saturday morning
The same day, i bought a new black stud while shopping
The same day, we watched Poseidon on the same night
The same day, i got a kao kao pinch from roundy at QQ
The same day, i went barFlam with San San the same night
The same day, San San was gone and i have to drive her home

The next day, lucky the cycling was postponed
The next day, i woke up at 3pm by my handphone
The next day, i start working on Forever Living

Today, it wasn't a too bad day
Today, i rush the deadline until noon day
Today, i was replyin sms the whole day
Today, i had a nice free dinner from Teabreak

Tonight, i reached home after raining
Tonight, i had Peel Fresh at roundy
Tonight, i havent slept since yesterday night
Tonight, im gonna sleep back my 48 hours night !

Song For Sale

Jinn from Vespertine "buying" my Song For Sale..ahhahahahaha...the last year single track recording tak jadi, but this time gonna do this with better recordings using his kit tools.

Song For Sale as heard was in acoustic, wonder how it will sounds like in full band. hhmmm...

YUm Yum Delicious !!!

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expect unexpect

this should be a very good start
for us who waited this long
never would i thought
that you will choose to backout
coz you were never once out
i never think twice or doubt

i don't blame you coz i understand
whats mandatory and whats's secondary
i wish you good luck all the best

i know you will come back one day
maybe we will corporate one day
maybe in different ways

I hope your passion will still stay
coz i will continue all along the way
eventhough i have to start all over again

Cycling@Bukit Cahaya

Friday nite badminton was a nice one, as i played almost the whole 2 hours..hahahaha. Then the usual yumchar at Kampung after the game, i ordered watermelon+milk, after gulping down the whole cup, with soon gonna be Dr. Phang saying another fruit juice won't cause anything, i ordered another carrot+milk. End up, lao sai once i reached home ! backside betul !

Saturday, finally the whole week planning jadi. 10 of us managed to woke up as early as 8am, gathered and drive up to Bukit Cahaya for cyclinggg. It was a really nice morning weather as the sun wasn't too hot. I guessed this is the first time i cycle for the past..2 years oledi i think..hahaha.. but it was really fun cycling up and down hill, sweated like a pig, and was more exhausted than i expected. The girls have to like on and off walk and push their bics..kesian..hahahahaha...Except Judee and Stef, who do weekly cyclings. Once we reached the end, it was this scenery of a lake overlooking a big bushy tall trees, really look like one of the scenery in Hero....nice and calm. We took alot of pictures on the way before we cycled back :)

It was a really fun journey. Will like to do it again man.

The afternoon dvd marathon plan was cancel as ..ahhaha..everyone was too tired after the cycle. Practically felt asleep when not even started watching yet, including myself.

And the plan for the clubbing night finally happened after few weeks of postponing. It was a really fun and happening Saturday night at Poppy@Passion, and im sure everyone enjoyed themselves. Me, hhmm...expected la...got really high and drunk..hahahahaha...

Supposedly band practise on Sunday was cancel and postponed to few days later. Well, good also. good day for me to rest. Got up, a little wee bit of hangover, went out for lunch with those who have waken up, then yumchar with my fatty and friends, then supposedly 2nd round yumchar with Alvin as he is leaving back to Shanghai tomolo, but i was really too tired to get my ass up, ffk in the end..hehe.. night was spent watching tv with my mom while chatting on msn off and on. No, i didn't buy anything nor wish my mother, just spent some time with her.

This evening, i compose a new song, after quite some times. But i havent bought a new mic recorder yet...damnnnnn.

shit happens

2 Indons stole a Harley Davidson kinda lookalike motorbic. In a small and happening area, speeding off with police chasing from behind, they skidded and banged into a girl, who was with her mother, after having their lunch. The girl lay unconscious, blood covered face. Her mother rushed her to the nearest hospital.

The police managed to arrested one of the Indon. The other guy escape.

The victim took leave from work and was having a nice time with her mom. I guessed now she will have a long leave from work.

The victim is my friend.

I hope the accident after effect won't impacted her too much.

first week of May !!!!!

Last weekend....

Friday was a light badminton night
i missed fatty's so called birthday treat
but i met kok wai's twin brother kok kit
i think they are my first twin friend

Saturday night was Mission Impossible night
the cinema system jam and we got all in a row seats
still not too late we crash over Star Pisces after that
chit chat chips and fries and a bucket of beer
not to forget we have a new friend named Jac i,
i think so

The night end but it was still raining
i feel happy but i need to work
burn the night oil rushing rushing
4:50 came dusk and off with heman
bah kut teh is the best before you rest
sunrises and i called it the end

on the way back then i remembered
thought just to pass by well he was there
burn the joss stick and pay my respect
thought was a short while turn out an hour
sacrifice my sleep for a very close friend
doesn't matter althought im tired

Smiling in my day dream land
and i missed dim sum with the gang
woke up it was time to called very late
it was sunday but i carry on with my task
rushing hoping im satisfied

Lazy call thus out for a short break
Esso mamak with the twins and beaver
that's the 2nd time i rejected mr. lock

thats my weekend and im tired
though im tired but im happy

A building where no one walks

try not to drop by first floor
if you have to, just look for who you intend to look for, not anyone else
When in 2nd floor
try to look like busy eventhough u are not
when you were done with your yesterday work
just leave and don't look back ! don't look back !
unless you not gonna sleep and be slave !

What do you do on Labour Day ?? Labouringg..hahaha

Shabu Shabu
steamboat dinner @SS2
with drew ann and lulu
halfway need to rush to the loo
after shitting feeling loose
continue eating and it feels so good
happy belated birthday lulu

hartamas square
ben made it there
drew met his friend
left the babi's there
sampat here and there
stories everywhere

ups

To you :
Try to cut down the intake will ya ?
you know you don't really need it actually
at least eat abit food for breakfast :)


Im gonna start and maintain back my daily push ups routine. Its really hard nowadays with all the stress and work but i will try to do it.

hhuuusshhhhh

You feel black out
you feel high
you feel happy
you feel stoned
you feel stupid
you feel like floating
you feel your echo
you feel heavy
you feel thirsty

ohh..fuckkkkk..fly me to ...

2

2 new friends
few familiar faces

bring in friend
expand the gang

more new faces
more new plans

best of all
all from klang

Drew yea man !
Klang people rocks !!

Jujur

Im listening to Indon songs ! yea yea..im ..hahahahahaa..i dig it man..ahhahaha

thanks to Jax and Frisha..i finally have that few songs that i heard and like but dunno who sang them..hahahaa

Among the few are :
Radja - Jujur
Radja - Tulus
Peterpan - mungkin nanti
Peterpan - menunggumu
Dewa - pupus
Dewa - kangen
Padi - Sobat
Padi - menanti sebuah jawapan

Knowing me..my favourite is Jujur by Radja..nice song..nice arrangement with violins and piano and strings..hehehe

Oh yea..that day i saw Jacklyn Victor, the first Malaysian Idol at the Curve. Wooo...thought she look taller from the tv, but not in real life. Also with quite thickish whitening make up, well, the friends that were with me said that, not me..hahahaha..

iends

A Just Friend says..hi,..hello,..bye,...and walks away...
A Best friend always stop by your side & asks how r u doing ??

A Just Friend has never seen you cry.
A Best friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A Just Friend thinks the friendship is over, when you have an argument.
A Best friend knows that it's not a friendship, until you've had a fight.


what about Best Friend that you used to cry on shoulder is now Just Friend ?
What about an argument with a best friend which ends up not even friend ?
What about Best Friend that always gives you problems ?
What about Just Friend that understands you more than Best Friend ?
what about friend that you don't call up or meet often but you know they are your Best Friend ?
what about your Best Friend that maybe only take you as Just Friend ?

Talk about this..
these days is like the seasons of drama for friends..

i heard of 2 good friend end up in a fight
i heard of wars between gang of close friends
i think i lost a friend the other day over argument
i heard of cold war between partners over some misunderstandings
i heard of friends being cheated by trusted friend

I think shouldn't say as best friend kua..good friends, close friends better la. And i thought best only apply to one ? hahaha... people change from time to time, so does your friends too. Sometimes friends that were only Just Friend to you for the past 10 years, suddenly becomes your Best Friend these days..or sometimes he is ur best friend based on the good memories you guys have on the past

Locked from the Inside

Damn careless today.
Went for futsal, i was late. I reached and im changing. I always put my shirt and stuffs at the behind seats. So i stopped engine, open the backseat door, throw my car key on the back seats, pick up my shoes and shirt, and change. After changing and packing, i terpress my car key alarm lock button but i didn't realised it. The alarm ranggg...stupid me thought the car key is still insert at the engine startup slot, so i closed the door behind and booh...MY CAR IS LOCKED FROM THE INSIDE....duhhhh....the alarm keep ringing but i cant do anything. Luckily i didn't set any timer for the alarm, so it didn't rang again after the first time. Was abit frus but it didn't spoil my mood for futsal though..hahahaa..

So how did i open my car lock in the end ? of course went back to get the spare key laaaa...and who is helping you with that ? have to paksa my fatty laaa...kesian him have to fetch me back and forth..hahahaa...thanks thanks. Luckily its in Klang !

DVD

Last Saturday was nice. Started off with the bah kut teh treat from bulat, celebrating of her getting work promotion ! congrats congrats ! i went back for a not so short nap, did some work, then joined the gang for dvd. They were finishing one of the dvd when i arrived, so i only got to watch Just Like Heaven. Some left and we continue with Manhunt on Channel V...hahahahaa..back for dinner, a short jammin session, a short work out session, a short msn chatting session, then back to Aldy's place again for 2nd round movie marathon. Watched half of Independence Day, 20 mins of football match between Chelsea and Liverpool, Heirloom, Scary Movie 4. Back home it was almost 5am. And luckily it was Sunday the next day. And the gang went for lunch and shopping the next day, wonder how they managed to wake up sooo early :p

It feels like Melbourne again. Everyone is so nearby, well of course, the difference is we need to to take a short drive around lah.


"when all else fails, go sweat yourself"
"i suggest sleep..hahahaha."
"hhmm..ok. When you are pissed and stress, go sweat urself out"
"haha...i still suggest sleeping is the best solution !"

#@$@!$!$!## .hahahahhahaa :)

sigh sign

Flashbacks of memories how we started this last year
everything went well, everything is good
not long ago we know there's the problem
i thought we solve it but still it occurs
the game hasn't really started
but you said you are tired
you are really tired..

What's wrong with you ?
Where's your driving passion ?
where is the maturity that i always see in you ?
We are still very far from destination yet
What's going on with you ?

You may have your personal issues
but running away won't help
its not like the end of the world
where's your responsibility ?
do you know what are you doing ?

Its your own decision
or rather i did make my decision
its what you said today that
i find no other encouraging reasons
that we should tolerate
that we should help
that we should understand
that we should..hold on

someone out there still believes in you
someone out there still finding ways for you
someone out there still waiting for your news
but you..
your excuse is loose
you gave up too soon
you lost yourself

I might be harsh but im not heartless
you can say im selfish and stubborn
but there is just no more room for drama
i dunno when you gonna sway away again
no point coming back and sigh again
there is once and there will always be again
by the time isnt that the same cycle again ?

i look forward and move on
assumming you were not on the same boat anymore
i wear the mask of unthreaten and steady
deep inside im pretending
like its no big deal

i should be sleeping actually
i can't sleep and decided to write this
maybe it is starting to sink in
above dissappointment and stress
im... sad

stupid pimple

ooooo...this ugly shits of bump
keep getting it around my nose these days...

damn pain ehhhh....duhhhh...

same boat

sometimes im harsh on you..
sometimes i push you too hard
sometimes im not qualify to judge you to start with

sometimes im being shit..
sometimes you have to bear with me

sometimes you surprised me
sometimes you dissappointed me
and most of the time you amazed me

how you handle things
how you improve drastically

because i never deny your ability
coz you have always prove to me
to you i put trust
coz we are on the same boat
share the same passion
hope it will always be

Most of all, thanks for bearing with me always


I think i haven't did enough yet as a friend..

happy birthday, fatty.

I was at a place where you have to shout to others for them to hear you

a stage full of dressed up good looking people
a glass of barcardi Lemon Coke after sooo long
a nicotine menthol stick on my finger
an eehhyooo ehhyooo music track mixer

a glance of sexy
a smile of cheeky
a sip to heaven
a move of actions

wow...its been a while.. !!

absolutely zero

lights out
playing absolutely zero
by jason mraz

got in the mood
mood to be alone
mood to think
mood to feel emo
for this short 3 mins

feeling
fucking lazy
but im not lost
but fucking unmotivated

work piled up
late night staying up
acne breaking out
hungry empty stomach

I need my dose
dose of distortions
dose of writings
dose of screamings
dose of sweats
dose of craps
and i like that

Don't ask me don't nag me
Don't make assumptions please
what is here please stay here
else i won't bother

here i can be me
out there i won't be like this
thats the purpose of my blog writing
this is my stress relieve
i wonder if everyone is like this

You should know who i mean
You should know what i mean

3 lights away

The long awaited puff..
it feels nice and cool

first time in slazh
couldn't care less

company in crime
surrounded by dark trees

a sense of float
a moment of high

3 ticts away

shouldn't be waited

truth or dare
beers and 100

another night of crazy
a night with kinky shits

I should be working
I ended up working

though
i weren't grumbling
not really complaining
i'm procastinating

Break

I forced myself to finish the chee cheong fun...
I was waiting...

I was kinda busy
when it came in

I couldn't finished even a double cheeseburger for dinner...
but i thank you for being you

Friday
my mind keep drifting away
sorting myself out
distract myself away

the scars were always there
reminds me that the past is real...

Everything will be ok back again
the mended and broken parts will be fix soon

as long as i don't touch the knobe
as long as i hide away the keys

Im happy
and i wish you happy

:)

The friend..12.04

The friend who play football dribbling and passing on the street road with me, that was crazy
The friend who i fetch with my ol'skool bike to everywhere, countable accidents
The friend who i broke his glass but tiukao me like hell when i offered to pay him back
The friend who always gives me shit, and helps me in deep shit
The friend who my parents only knew of my friend back then
The friend who sometimes force me to go vegetarian with him in canteen
The friend who indirectly made me lost my first girlfriend
The friend who i were asked by his family to inform him the first place of his mother's departure
The friend who tried to change my mind when i decided to leave science stream
The friend who i indirectly screwed up his sister's wedding pictures
The friend who was never lucky so far in relationship
The friend who brighten up my every birthdays
The friend who flew away for the 4th year
The friend who always support and encourage me in everything

The friend of my best childhood memories...

"hey, still remember wat day is 2day?my bro's birthday! as a friend of him, hav you wish him yet ?if not, do it now lo ! help me ask the others to wish him also. k ?"


And...
i
fucking
forgot
your
birthday

If not of your brother reminding me with sms on your birthday night, i would have ..seriously...forgot.

What kind of friend am i.

I feel like a pimp

Bullshits !

Tonight i have the most crappiest sessions with the gals, the couple and the friend. Guessed i must be high from the nasi lemak or 100 plus. The debatings, the shoutings, the pinchings, the laughters, the echoes, well..nothing important...all bullshit...hahahahahhaa..

Or must be because i won the single match tonight..wuahahahaha... !
And thanks YL for the round treat..hahahaha..seems like quite some free meals these weeks, Lotus on fatty, BahKutTeh on KW, and today..yea yea...but im still broke though...

They must be surprised when they hear me sing chinese songs tomolo ! kekekee...yea..what else but ktv..hahahaa..

Here comes the weekend, benjoy !

Drye's Jammin Session.2

The jammin session that day...i was sick...but nothing could stop me..hahahahaaa...

Everything
The first jam, too slow, guitar and bass off tune, can't hear wei loon's kick, arrangement abit out, my vocal sucks, stopped halfway. Retune, reconstruct, after the 2nd rejam, everything starts to come in piece ! by the time we rehearse it for the 4th time, i no longer think about whether the bass will go off key, whether the drum will sounds weird, nice ! maybe just a bar or 2 of drums that wei loon cant remember how i really compose it in the demo..nvm..next time !

Time
The first jam, fuck...it was awesome ! damn...it wasn't a problem for wei loon since we jammed this before the last time. But for Taik, the bassist, everything he played was ...cool..damn !

Possibility
Nice ! besides the first time we stopped halfway because the bridge was confusing, the rejam again was ..complete ! hahahahahaa... except maybe just figure out that wei loon got lost in some parts dunno when to go into chorus..i guessed so..hahahahaha..you da man !

Fallin Apart
I think this is my personal favourite song. 3 attempts and we stopped, coz Taik admit he couldn't get what was i playing from the demo or from the tabs i gave, until now seeing how i play it. While Wei Loon being forgetful again..hahahaa..well..i dun blame, it was a kinda progressive rock song to start with.

My Way
Didn't thought we will jam this song, coz it wasn't in our jammin list actually. But it just hit off like that, everything...just like that..hahahaha..damn nice feeling though !

I still got quite some complaints though. Like the sound system, the drumkick sound, the mic stand, the mic volume, the studio guitar amps, and the 2 other bandmates that couldn't make it. But practise makes perfect, i couldn't ask more for the first jammin sessions with Taik, the bassist. And i believe Taik can play alot better adding in his own style the next sessions, coz he is just playing according to my tabs for this time.

KF : hey..still interested to jam with that bassist fella ?
WL: Of course. He is the best one we jammed before so far.

I agreed..hahahahah

Looking forward for more jammin sessions. And please, i hope i don't fall sick on that very day again...duhhh !

Ps. We saw you that day. Either you are blind, or you didn't saw us, or you just overlooked us..coz we were just 2 tables away and you passed by us twice...hahahaha...well, i didn't greet you also to start with, doesn't matter la...dunno..dun care.

Blackie

She cried tonight, midnight
It was weird..it seldom happened.
I went down to her, to check on her.
She was alright, but she is crying,
she look so sad, why...
I know why..
she want to get out from the kernel..
but mom always put her in the kernel in the night...
don't ask me why

Her eyes are wet
transparently glowing...
heavy breathingly
looking at me...
i keep smiling and saying
"sleep la...sleep la"

then i remember the old sayings..
if you rub the tears of a dog onto your own eyes...
you can see the "other" world...

She usually don't cry,
tonight she does,
and there's the tears..
but no..i didn't took the risk...
crazy..hahahaha...
my own imagination could oledi kill me

tonight i felt pity
i left her out from the kernel
im a good boy
but for sure mom gonna nag me tomolo

Hopefully the night is still the same
as long as she don't bising

Best presentation

Today i had the best "presentation" ever...i guessed so..

Maybe i was sick and weak, maybe i just dunwan to start the fire knowing me, i will just shoot everything out. Maybe it was vc, who played the cards so smartly and carefully, which makes me presented it in the end in the most general ways. Seriously, i was surprised myself.

Things that supposed to said, is said.
Things that supposed to be done is done
Things that supposed to be discuss, is discuss

problems are clear
misunderstandings are clear
direction clear
major role clear

I think it does scratched the match fire a bit. But it didn't spread off just like that. Everything under control, i made my point, he made his point, so does he.

Everyday we learn something, today i learnt :

Outsiders always knows clearer whats happening between. When you see them, you are the outsiders ; when they see you, they are the outsiders.

Water Balloons

I know everyone knows that night is gonna be a fun crazy nite for all of us.
Everything well prepared...the belons are readily loaded with water, the airgun is armed, the cake is nicely cream whipped.

The plan abit spoiled when the birthday boy dinner was cut short, and saw us preparing the water belons. But there was no turning back for him...wuahahahhaha

The supposed plan is to bring the water belons over to a nearby padang to play and celebrated. But dunno who started throwing balloons at KW..... and..----- war starts !!!

15 minutes of war... KW avoiding and running..and he slipped and fell...yea..wet floor. Knee cap hitted, pain, care, cant stand, end up at the nearest clinic.

Party ends...just like that ! hahahahaha...

What a birthday present to you, KW :)

Well, anyway, we make him cut the cake the next day and belanja us yumchar. Yea, his knee is ok the next day.

thanks

Wooo..thanks all for the supports and motivations. Alot of unexpected smses and msgs ...really really unexpected..appreciate that

Didn't know many of my friends actually take the time to download and listen to all the songs. The power of MSN..hahahaha...Felt kinda weird knowing people heard my sucky vocals..hahahaha...and of course..screamings..

But guess this all started off with the acoustic "song for sale" song. Among all the compliments and critics, my best satisfaction was knowing that it actually inspired some of my friends to do things they wanted.

I wrote that song for someone ?
well..maybe..subconsciously..to someone that i once really care for..
The lyrics ? hahaa..like i said..i just sang out just like that..no proper lyrics..just the chorus

Doesn't matter where im going
for as long as you can hear me
its the best thing i 've ever had
for as long as you can make me real

Write more acoustic songs like that? yea..i will considered that if i found a great vocalist..hehe
Write chinese songs ? i dunno..never tried..hahahahaha. I scare it will turn out and sounds like English ..hahahah..

But like the title itself..i wrote that song..is actually to really sell that song...to whoever that interested to buy it..ahhahaha...

I feel motivated. Thanks alot.

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

k...gonna rest a while. Whipped cream+balloon+flour+water+airgun party tonight !!!! hope the girls wear white..ahhahahahahahahaa...

FEEL

Was yumcharing together with Ah Loong tonight. He shared this funny story.

He have this girl staff in his bridal shop ( family business ). And this girl got a boyfriend. For the first few weeks (or months i forgot), the boyfriend will drive his car and going a few circles around the bridal shop area after sending the girlfriend to work..

When asked why do he do that ?

"i drive rounding around your shop, so that you will FEEL that im guarding and protecting you"

WTF....... ?????

8

8 met
on a heart shape day
2 were my old's
the rest are new

from planned sushi
to a waited more than an hour
but food never arrived cafe
to a dim sum restaurant

thought was a one night stop
ended up almost every weekend
every other day
for sure every wednesday

different backgrounds
funny stories
fresh characters
balance gender
caring and laughter

funnyhow it all connected
despite the connected area
and the circle is growing out 8
where were they before this ?
where were i before this ?
how were we before this ?

Connect - disconnect - reconnect

make believe.

Hgih

After few days practises, finally managed to jump and play and sing with my GRX40, hanging as low as till below my waist..looks so much cooler ! wuahahahaha.. now i need a mic stand ..!

Realtek sound card not nice lehh..i want back my VIA... !!!! @#$!%!$!#@!

Jammin Jammin Jammin ... can't wait... !

9 more picture messages in 4 days time..shit shit shit !!

Banyak ammendments...die die die !

life getting back to ol' batman...ooo..not very good le !

Parents cold war ends... finally mannnn !

air cond filter changeddd ... i get cold now !!

Washed my car after the rain ...so please don't rain !

3000km passed service point ..how how...shit..i gonna kena from my dad later...

hey hey..you must be sleeping, waiting for your reply ...hope you get the job yea !!

Ooh oohh..another Flash again...makan makan...thanks thanks !

Sorry ah the recent face for Jusco Aeon model, sure you must be dissappointed leh..hope to see you soon anyway..hehehe !

Zeon Zeon Zeon...so headache ....Ganozhi Ganozhi ... waiting for your positive reply

SRC cepat call back when cik Jan is not around !! im busy leh..hahahaha..jk !

I threw away burned back work cd ! lucky Jo is still around !!

Pass pass goal tomolo .. yeah
drop shot smash after tomolo.. yeah

Ice Age 2 .. yeah !

Genting..come come...! but don't get fooled on the day !

The N times he borrowed 50 bucks from me unreturned...haha..but its alrite...500, 5000 bucks or more also i will borrow or help , coz i will always love him !

k....time to sleep..1000000% will be waken up by 0122248512 tomolo ! hahahahaa...:)


Good morning everyone !!! thanks for readin my bullshit..im a zombie jorrrr...shit..hungry...dun care la..not the first time....nite. nite.

Song For Sale

Finally after one week...my PC is rebornnnn...

Thought was the RAM problem..but after finally brought over for checking..the harddisk was ok, but its my motherboard problem..sudah almost gone burst. Must be overheat or something, coz the chips all look like sudah kembangg..like almost gonna burst like that...luckily i brought it over for service in time..else..i really dunno what will happened next..

Changed my motherboard and finally everything is up working again. Running on 768 now, 256mb faster than my previous speed. But my old 512MB ram will be coming back soon :) coz previously i thought was my RAM spoilt, so i brought in for a change, ( FYI, Kingston RAM got lifetime warranty ), and the computer guy, which is my bro's friend, was kind enough to borrow me a 256 RAM for temporary use. So..imagine i've been running on 256 for the past 1 week...really slow lor...one Photoshop and one Illustrator application enough to make my computer freeze...hahaha..

I bought a new 512 Kingston RAM. Together with the friend's 256RAM, running on 768 now. Hopefully my old 512 RAM will be back by next week, so i can run on 1 GIG RAM, after returning the 256..i sounds a bit jakun, coz i know memang alot of people have been running on 1 gig RAM or more for some times..hahahaha...

Sometimes...money can save you some problems and makes your life easier..hahaha..or like Frisha said, bring happiness to your pc..hahahaha..

Hit my walkman record button, and recorded this one song live just like that, spontaneously, on the spot just like that..hahaa, during the time when my pc cant even boot. No drums and bass, so just acoustic..song for sale....

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

support support a bit..ahhahahaa

Blue Screen

aiyooo..please laa..enough of blue screen jorrrrr....
leave me alone for a while...
let me finished up my work for tomorrow's deadline at least...
be good to me lah...tolong tolonggg...


my RAM is giving me problem. Besides, i think my almost 3 years old desktop is ..old.

Thinking of the money i need to spend to upgrade my stuffs...

duhhhh...of all the time but this time !

The god must be playing with me ! else the god must be crazyy..hahaha..

McD Queue

Sunday. Dropped by for McD before 9:25pm Underworld...

beratur-ing. a voice from behind
stranger : you see, the queue is long but you don't complaint. At home, you are hungry..you shout heyy..where is dinner ? how long more ??

me :(turn around to see this 30s indian guy)..hehe..
me : ( find it rude to be quiet) well.. So... where's your wife ?

He pointed to the his wife who is queuing up on the other line. Actually the queue wasn't that long to start with, im next after this girl in front of me..

me : oohh..family day huh ?
stranger : yea..happy day !( cheeky smile )

i think he heard me wrongly..hahahaha..

stranger : so you see, the thing now is everyone is nicely queueing up and no one grumbles, but at home you blame when dinner is not ready yet..why did it take so long, isnt it ?

me : ( its like the same question repeated again..how? how?..) eerr..well..at home you get to rest nicely on your comfy sofa and wait, here you have to stand and wait maybe..

stranger : hhmm hhmm...( cheeky smile )

me : smile back ( FUCK..i dunno what am i talking about also..wuahahahahhaaa...)

Lucky its my turn to order...

stranger : so this is your supper ?
me : eerr..dinner actually
stranger : oohh..

(silent)... it supposed to be actually from the start !

me : have a nice day sir
stranger : enjoy your meal ( looking at my ordered food all the while )

Funny encounter again..hahaha...

Sunday Morning Bluesss

"Told you before, nothing is 永远或是你想它怎样它就会如你所要得那样！！ 也告诉过你，没有人会记得你所做过或所付出过的。每一个人都只会记得你所犯过的错，但你的好，只有自己懂。。。每一个人都有自己该走的路，当他们选择了自己的道路，就不会想再回头想起从前了，只有那些不能前进的人才会永远在原地踏步，还在怀念从前。记得，爱你该爱的人而不是逼人家听你的一切。不要强求，也不要为此不开心！！ 好好过个充实的生活吧。。。。。"

quote this from a friend's friendster blog comment post.

Sometimes, or many times, i try to prove the phrase above incorrect, or not neccessary...but after a few rounds, i admitted. People do changed. Be it for better or worse.

I find myself moved on too fast. Sometimes i wondered, was it me moving on too fast or im forced to move on. Funny how people connect, disconnect and reconnect. Everything takes both side to work, if the chemistry is not there anymore, its not there anymore then :) the more you try to make it happen, the more you are faking it.

Things are always like that. Sometimes you know you are happy, and sometimes you know you can be happier. Try to find your best ways to ease and cheer yourself up when you are unhappy, try to take a step back and look and everything will be okay. Just try your best and the rest will be destined.

I tend to get things that i don't really want, or need. Be it attention, affection, caring, friendship, sex, work, business etc.I back out when i face these. But things that i really wanted is always not in my luck..hahahaha... I can't make everyone else satisfied, i can't make everyone to enjoy what i like, and i don't plan to also. I am mine..hahahahaha

Life is soooo short....you search, you wait, you found, you lost, you get, you fail, you fall, you tried, you enjoyed, you been through, you believe, you knew, you forget, you hate, you pissed, you fucked, you earn, you learn, you trust, you were....

Glimpse of Horror and Hope

17 march. My PC ...crashed...all my stuffs since melbourne...gone...

You see, shit happens. I always know that. I even had a small little signboard i bought from Melbourne written "shit happens" ..and it always happened on the most unexpected time, the very time that you fucking dunwan it to happen.

I need to hand up 2 projects by the next day when this happened, and was totally devastated. The selected working files were all corrupted.. Try to format my pc and my RAM just chose to spoilt on the same time..formatting were corrupted halfway..cant even boot.I felt like crying..almost wanted, but then i felt stupid. I left everything there just like that, planning to go out for a break, get a beer, or maybe get myself drunk, not wanting to think about anything anything....

Was on my way out when i got a call. We talked...blurted out all our problems and situations...i felt much better.. Was still driving and wandering around when my fatty called, offering to help. I feel relieved. Then my bro called, or i called him, i forgot. And he offered to help with my crashed harddisk.

My bro came back earlier just to help out. Spent the whole night analysing and operating the whole CPU, asking for help from his friend from time to time. Finally i see the glimpse of hope when all my files are recovered. It was almost 3 by then. Went over to fatty's place and relieved to find out the work half done. We worked till morning and managed to get everything in time for submission.

So..i didn't get myself a break that night..haha

Am using my bro's laptop now as my pc is still in "operation".

Thanks dude for the call ya. You know who you are :)
Thanks fatty who helped so much, but then you memang should..hahaha :)
Thanks alot to my lil bro who helped me so much when i fucking need a help. I know that "chee cheong fun" is not enough to show my appreciation..hehehe :)

Rich

Today i met a "fortune teller" by coincidence..or rather they planned it.
She looked at me, concentrated stare..kinda ..hhmm..scary..well, i didn't know she knows how to fortune tell until in the end.

She said quite alot. Quite true some of them..hahaa..But i like her first phrase.
"you know, you will be rich by the age of 27"

That made my day..wuahahhahaa..

She taught us quite some ways of face-telling.But this is the only one i remembered. Put ur 2nd and 3rd fingers in between ur eyebrows..if it fits nicely 2 fingers in between, you are usually destined to be rich.

Faster go try that !!!!! hahahahahahaha...and don't blame me if it doesnt !

think too much

Quite alot of good things happened these days, these weeks..this year tilll now..

Learned a lot, heard alot, made quite some new friends, made some deals, got some jobs, found vocalist, found my passion ...all is good, yea..its all good.

But yet..something is missing, Slowly seeing the distance and difference from them, maybe it was a mistake i guessed, after all.

I miss them, i dunno if they do, maybe they don't. Don't really blame also. Friendship takes 2 sides to clap.

Maybe this will carry on and will slowly faded off from my mind, maybe i will be happier, maybe they do to.

Maybe im still that sensitive and emotional guy like said. I don't deny, but i learnt.

Sometimes i wonder, where do i belong ?

Maybe life is like that..maybe i think too much again.

Blur

why do you call someone blur ...a blur sotong ???

give me 10 reasons !!! hahahaa..

Lost in Translation

Was doing a leaflet first in English, then the BM version. While doing the admendments...come across these words that was so weird and funny after translation...but thats what the client edited ! hahahaha..! or maybe my BM really jakun..hhaha

ongoing assessment - latih tubi
notepad - pad nota
website links - pautan laman web
BestariEd Online - BestariEd Atas Talian ( WTF !! )
Minimum System Requirement / Server - Keperluan Sistem Minima / Pelayan ( hahahahahahhaa..)

have a great day everyone !

dong dong

it was kinda scary at first sight
i think everyone noticed but no one bring it up
but someone did in the end

sure it must be painful and suffering for you
to go through this shit no one have to
no longer we get your calls for a drink
i don't know what are you thinking

I bet you feel this is unfair
people like me doing it everyday but still ok
maybe one day i will face the consequences

sigh...
imagine how long more our road in this life
appearance is not all although it does matters
sometimes and maybe all the time
but somehow people will get use to it
people accepted it and cool with it

take your time
but hope you will come back soon :)

Zhap Fan

finally she talked to me..
it has been just that sweet caring smile for the past weeks
suddenly i dunno what to say to her but just smile back
"kuk fa yit hai mai ? " ( chysanthemum hot rite ?)
nodded nodded

not the first time anyway..
I remembered she told me before
quiet boy attract people's attention

izzit true ?
ahhahahaha...

That Friday

Why must you remind me how i felt that day
why must you remind me what i expected that day

why must you remind everyone about that day !!!!!!!!!!!!

why must you make me feel a sharp needle penetrating my weak heart
why must you remind me what i am who i am
why must you push the blame to everyone
why must you...

I just want something very simple on that Friday. But i didn't got it...
maybe my treat wasn't worth it
maybe I don't worth it

i forgot that day
Now i remembered
Now i want to forget that day again

You spoilt my day.
I hate this feeling.

Damn

Mounting Room

please keep this door close"
a sense of cold
a sense of alone

green green green everywhere
squarish art board everywhere
cutted unused papers anywhere

push up tick push up tock push up tick again
that was the sound of my cutter
place my art nicely and slice
does the green feels the pain ?
slice cut slice cut

look down and around for the black card
lucky enough u find one nicely cut

prepare the art
spray spray spray
don't try to breath
else you will suffocate

place your art on the black card
no time to measure you just paste
look at the whole and make sure it looks great
else you will come back again and complaint

fight for fish

fight for fish ?

oh dear fish, there are many ways to cook a fish. But just knowing how to cook is not enough woh, have you tried eaten it before ?i bet you longed for it.

You don't have to tell me how you think it will taste like, coz i have tasted it, others might have to, but not you. Don't you realised it ?

Tell me if you get to taste it. I will tell you how it tasted like before..hahahahahaa

100

nice to be pamper
nice to be taken care
nice to be told
nice to be a part of it

Not nice to hear scandals
Not nice when its from two side
Not nice when you are the messenger
Not nice when you have to bear to listen
Not nice when you see the bad sides of it

Nice when it comes to proposal
Not nice when you have to take risk
Not nice when you it comes to money
but i have to think for my own company
am i being lucky or unlucky

Life is about an act
She taught me that
but she taught me too much
and she told me too much
how am i gonna deal with this
how am i gonna open my mouth

i hope she understand business is business
i hope she understand personal is personal
im gonna tell her

100

Saturday Morning

Stoning in the jam
thinking where to go
she msged on the right time
and thus we headed date

a tap on the shoulder
yes its a friend i should have know
which i never get the chance to know
guessing left telling right
final guess you never know

It feels weird at first
but i dunno about her
drinking beer getting closer
i know what she wants but im hiding
i sent her off saying im sleepy
i did nothing wrong so i shouldn't be guilty
i went back in everything change already
it was a night to remember really


I met her back after 10 years
no more the tomboy but an angel now
her smile. it tickles me.
how she reminds me of one of my crushes
alot better actually. Alot.
but unfortunately she is taken
this is how things always happens

one two three four makes me feels like a pimp
i hope Aldy is around so i dun feel like an extinct spesis
all are new friends but more like very old friends
nice to know everyone still remembers klang

flirting is not new to me
but it feels weird with you flirting with me
like as you trying to hint me something
one wrong step i know everyone gets hurt
ask me something and im still taking it
seems like im adding more oil to the fire

ha ha is the first reaction when i heard it from them
seems like its not only me feeling that way
making drama stories faking intention
what they said was funny but maybe its right
hang urself to dead and you will get all your attention

I hope to see you smile
but it don't have to be for me
it was a past but still i remember
it feels one kind knowing your trouble
i hope they wont bothers you too much
i hope you will smile on the phone

Suddenly everything seems like a puzzle
everyone telling everyone different scandals
everyone knows everyone but not everyone

today i found another place of fun
a friend to rely and a place of ease

He took a step back and look
everything seems so clear now
He no longer keep asking why
coz he thought he knows
or maybe he choose just not to bother
maybe he bother but he pretend dun care
it was easier actually
to just be the one watching

when you want something badly
it turns out deadly
when you let it go and get your life on
it comes back to you just like this
like this is better like that

adik pergi mana is the last thing i remember on my way home
cant the police sees that im tooo sober to be driving
when will someone at least call me abang or mr

hahahaha...ok...im high...not drunk k ! and i need to work on blardyyy SUndayyyy..potong stimm betul !!!

V'day

oh..shit..
things happens when you never thought it wil be
whats happening now
is something that i never thought will ever happened to me
and it is happening now..

Several different incoming numbers
it was the same person
Several flirting on the phone
it was fun and new

Now a present on my table
oh i got a present on valentine's day !
unwrap to be something that i told her yesterday
surprises me yet makes me feel guilty

too straight forward makes me think
different race culture makes me step back

should i play along with the game now ?

ask myself..i know...
ask myself..i know...

well...HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE DAY to everyone !!!!

drama 1

7:05
Was planning to leave early for a dinner treat
"hey..got ammendments..you help me...don't go back 1st"

.......damn

8:05pm
I was late for the dinner. Damn frus di. Friends calling on and off.
I did the changes. Printed the mock up and found out some mistake. So i changed and reprint again. I went up to get the new print, when come back down, she was there..checking on the wrong printing..

"hey..why is this like that ? like blur and pixelated ???"
"ooo...this is the corrected wan actually"
"haiyaa...say laaa..don't scare us lahh !"

"ehhh..why do you put this 2 buntings in one A4 ???"
"you were supposed to put 1 bunting in 1 A4 ! why ?? you helping company to save printing and paper cost ah ??"


Damn..i so feel like shouting and snapping at her :
"HEY...IM STILL DOING THE CHANGES OK ??? I DIDN'T ASK YOU TO COME AND CHECK ON IT NOW !!!! DAMN YOU BITCHHH !!!!"

And it supposed wasn't my work to start with. The other designer was mc for the past 3 days, and i have to take over all his workload...damn tiring okk...I have to spend like dunno how long just to find back the work file ! i know the head AE herself was stress and wasn't too good mood herself.. but can't she respect me abit and talk nicely ?? ... wat "you want to help company save paper printing cost ah ? damn sarcasticc...cibai !

When she left, everyone was like making facial actions and bisikking to me to don't bother her..hahaha..no one likes her to start with ! hahahaa..
XX : " you know lahh..she is not married yet. She doen't have good sex life...so thats why laa ! "

My office is really a crazy place for scandals and rumours..hahahahahahahahaa...

if she ever shout at me for no proper reason again..i will just "bitch..shut up !" /..hahahahahhaa

blacklist c

It was quite packed the moment i step in. Was quite a while ago since i last dropped by..hahaha.

Everyone went in the room..and out..no one took more than 2 mins. It was my turn..

"hi..so..boy..you still studying rite ?"
"eerr..nop. Im working di"
"so whats your company name ?"
"XXX Advertising"
"oohh...so you didn't went to work this morning rite ?"
"yea.."
"so what excuse do you want to give ?"
"*stoned*...eerr...bad stomach"
"ok...pay and get your mc"

i walked out with a smile..hahaha...

Just Feel Better

Santana feat. Steven Tyler - Just Feel Better

She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If we coming or I'm going
It's not how I planed it
I've got the key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
It goes I never went before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better

And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

Long to hold you in my arms
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

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really like this song. The lyrics like a bit sad but the song doesn't sounds sad...more like happy..hahahha.. Steven Tyler didn't overshow his mouth eating mic vocal ability here, he did just that little bit of his style which really make this song unique

yea yea..finally i got this song..hahhhahahhaa

An Interview with ..part1

You : hi nice to meet you.
me : yea..nice to meet you too. Please have a seat

you : thanks. Can we start now ?
me : yea .sure.
you : so, hows your new year celebration ? did you get a lot of angpaos ?
me : new year as usual la. 38 38 here and there. Angpao money getting lesser year by year lehh..sigh

you : elaborate more laaa..
me : oo..as usual..the gambling tradition started off on new year eve at Yoon Sing's place. Many people turned out this time, including Dow Wei and the A1 gang. This time, i played more on mahjong...hahahaha...damn fun..keep tiu kaoing each other, hinting each other what biji they gonna throw, conning each other...and the best part is to win ..win ..win and winn..hahahaha..but damn..i lost 17 bucks on the 1st dayyy....

you : what time u woke up on New year first day then ?
me : don't remember.. noon i think. Then got called, then out for the tradition house to house visiting !!! damn hot...hot damn..tried almost all the pineapple biscuit in every friend's house. All tasted so same yet different..hahahaha. And of
course...what else but gamble alsoo.. dun remember what else happened that day.

you : what else do you remembered ?
me : i remembered one of the night..we were at Li Keng's place. Woo..i miss her so much, and her house hospitality..hahahaa...play mahjong and drink red wine, then liquor, then wine again, then finished the whole container of potato chips, then jelak of the pineapple tarts, then high high play mahjong..then i winnn...see..i win when we were not betting..tiu..cibaii..hahahahah..i went home feeling quite drowsy..hahaha..

you : hahahaha..
me : One of the night, it was boy's night out..hahahahaha..8 of us planned this once a year clubbing session..our first in mind..was to go RUSH...but it was so quite the empty when we reached there..which was quite potong stimm..finally we decided to change venue. Went over to Hartamas's Soda, which turn out to be worseeee...so silent...finally we know KL is the only last hope for us. And it did, we ended up in packed Beach Club, Thai Club was too packed anyway. Opened bottle and toast the whole night awayyyy...the band upstage before the DJ start spinning, preformed "our time is running out" by MUSE...woahhh..damn surprise...and it rockk...or maybe im not sober di that time..hahahahaha...

you : did you get any chick's number ?
me : hahahaha...i slipped my namecard into May's pocket..wuahahahhahaa..and she msged backk..ahhahahaha

you : wat laooo..what did you did to her ? faster sayyyy
me : i didnt rape her laaa..bodahhh

you : chun or not ?
me : anyway...we were still so high after they closed at 3am. Potong stimmmm...and we went for Bah Kut Teh after that..YES !!!! 4:30am in the morning and we are having Bak Kut Tehh..just fresh from the bowl soup..best giler !!!

You : wahhh.. crazy ahh..no need sleep ah ? what time did you slept then ?
me : the moment i reached home..hahahahahahha

You : .....
me : the next day night we went for Neway's KTV. RM48++ per person with buffet. Ada chinese food, western food, japanese food, dessert, toppings, sushi, dimsummm...woahh..damn best ! and damn alot of new songs...damn..we must go again one day !!!

you : wahh....
me : on the way back, all of us have this urge to go check out Flam and Qbar. Reached there, all said the chicks there are better than the ones in Beach Club..ahhahahaha...but we didn't went in in the end..coz Kevin was wearing
shorts..

you : hahaha..sure all la la muis..hahahahhahaa
me : the next next day, i slept the whole noon. Woke up, relatives came..same questions la..where you working laa..hows work laa...whats ur plan laa...wahh..so tall di la..grow up di laa...

you : hahahahaa...
me : not to say they give big angpao also..ahhaha...just kidding. Then the night, it was a sudden plan then everyone ended up at Vee's place for the 2nd time. Blackjackkkk time...i won abit ..hahahaha...Ahloong the banker won 80+..!@#$!#@! ..half of the money was Keguang's bet..ahhahaha..it was a nice night..we all the shoutings and naggings and play dumb facial tricks..hahahahaa..at the end, the banker was forced to treat us supper, and the supper costed him RM90+..he cursed...hahahahaha :)

you : wahh..kesian him lehhh...
me : alah..he so rich...dun worryyy..

you : hahaha..hey..brb..toilet. continue later./

Happy Birthday to Me !

Finally decided to clear the pics from my phone camera after weeks...



wooaahhhh...



mamak session after futsal...normal routine



he never fail to entertain us !! hahahaha..



before our very first presentation.



My cleaned room...! which wasn't clean by me !



pre-RUSH posing with our new blink blink tailou ! went Beach Club in the end instead.



the banker that won 80+ bucks treating us supper, which costed him 90bucks ! hahaha



RM48++ buffet+3hours KTV. Japanese, Chinese food, dessert, dimsum, best gila !



I thought it was the same number. Until i realised it wasn't after taken !



Oo..spider..you will reach heaven once i push the viper button..hahahaha



Alvin's last roti canai before flying back to Shanghai.



Lou Lou Lou... !!!!



not really that nice food choice this year..hhmmm



birthday cake for everybody.



2nd stop at vee's house.

Happy Chinese New Year

Another stress filling, tiredness haunting week has passed, finally. And the best part is that, i got my first pay check from my current company yesterday, in cash somemore!!! hahaha.."woo..cc..cash ah ??"... " you nak raya kan ?" ... so nice :)

Dad and mom was having cold war again few days ago, which added up to my tiredness and numbness everytime i reached home. What a time in the year but this time ??



Nearly cannot make it for my S3ACA class gathering yesterday night at Teluk Gong. Stupid work laaa...everyone knows im taking leave on Saturday, purposely like wan me to finish up everything on friday nite. Felt quite paiseh to have all of them, i think around 20+ turned up, waiting for me to "lou sang"..hahahahahahaha...good to catch up with everyone after almost a year !! 2:30am, i thought tat will end my uber tiring day after fetching the gals back, but i went over for another yumchar session with Alvin, Yoon Sing and Twu Chin. Alvin, who just came back a day ago from Shanghai for a short CNY holiday.( have to give face..hahaha ) Still the same buddy that i know but maybe a bit thinner now.

Skiat is back also, from Beijing. Think will see him very soon.



Just had reunion lunch just now. Both parents ok back di..heh. Good news :)

And yesterday was quite surprised when i reached home, my room is sooo tidy. Stoned for a while. I thought my mom did it, but only found out it was my dad. Lagi surprise then..ahhahaha...

I haven't wash the car yet. And i haven't even cut my hair yet. I hadn't bought any new clothes for CNY..where have all my time gone ?? i really dunno..work ? more like a slave..ahahha..

Well..still...its holiday now. Need to continue to catch up with my sleep. Tonight most probably will be the start of the gambling session at yoon sing's place. Haha..the tradition ! hahahaha...

Im tired but feeling warm and happy, but too lazy to smile.
Happy Chinese New Year Everyone !!!!!!

Damn....im fucking impressed...this MV was did by our locals. Malaysian. Love Me Butch. Go download and watch it if you think malaysian sucks...

www.lovemebutch.com

Im impresseddd...

Monday 11pm

Yesterday i reached home around 8 plus, which is kinda early for me..hahahaha...got myself prepared for today's jamming session. Got a call then went out yumchar with the Hunterians gang. Its been a while since we last sat down and have a good time. It was about 11pm time to go when we coming out plans of what to do for CNY this year, as many of us start working on the 4th or 5th day i think. I forgot who came out with this saying, "hey..we so long didn't go singk di" ... "come la..we go during CNY"..." ehh, come la..we go now !" ... "sure or not boh ?" ...." yalah, you think i kidding ahh" ...forgot who said which sentences, but the next thing we know, 7 of us were heading towards Newsktv..ahahahaha

I like on the spot surprise planning...but that is if its not too much. hahaha..coz like for now...im so damn sleepyyyy....reached home yesteday around 2am in the morning..by the time mandi, then online a bit..waiting for hair to dry...its almost 3 oledi...hahahaha..help helped...:(

Yesterday, I told my AEs i got relatives wedding tonight..hahahahahhaahhaa...so im not gonna stay on late for work tonight...yea yea

Today the office seems so quiet, becoz the so called "mother" is not in yet...hahahaha, as she have a meeting going on, coming in only at 11. So no job brief for me in the next hour..yeh yeh....

OSX

K..wooo...finally get to change my working comp from OS9 to OSX ...hahahaa..nice nice :)

K...So now have to get myself to get use to this new comp...different shortcut keys...but the expose is quite cool..hahahaha

K..i remember i used to hate Mac ... ahahahaa...


K. Well, jamming tomolo night. Jake roped in his ex.bassist. Really hope no one ffk this time, and hopefull hopefully please i dun have to work late tomolo.

K. Well, the past week have been really tiring. Didn't really have enough sleep for almost everyday..

K..have to work.. Rush hour again.

space out

These days, every morning when im on the way driving to work, my mind keep have this like space out kind of feelings. Alot of stupid stupid thoughts went in and out of my mind. Stare blankly, observing the cars and peoples in trafific jam, you tend to see alot of small habit and movements everyone have. Listening to hitz.fm, the lyrics of some of the songs sounds so clear and obvious, which you never really get what they are singing the last few times u heard it. i laughed to the stupid hitz morning crew jokes. which sometimes a little annoying as my face muscle is not fully stretch yet..hahahaha...sometimes i really hope the next song will be a song that i know how to sing, or at least like the song...but it never happened..ahahahah..i would like to hear the new Steven Tyler collaborate with Santana song, forgot whats the song title, and Weezer's "perfect situation"..where you can go "oh hoooo... oh hooo.." hehehe...the last time i heard that santana's song, i was about to pump petrol..potong stimm. I need a cd player..hhahahahaa

Always thought of to update this the first thing i reached office. But will always have deadline either by 10 or 11, rushing rushing, big contrast with my space out driving on the way. My new working environment so far so good la. Workload is forever like war rushing for deadlines, design and illustrations wise still ok but i hate it when the client come back that they wanted a new art direction, there it goes all over again...the fun part, and is also the scary part, is to hear some internal politics and gossips happening in the office, or how when a event was screwed up and you see the big shot people swinging doors and banging tables, not to forget the loud swearing..hahahahaha...kesian some of the despatch boys, forever kena marah from 2 sides.

My band wise, i dunno what happened. But Inez pulled off last minute, saying that she still not mature and independent enough to join us, which i think kinda a weird reasons. So we didn't get to jam at the end, kinda potong stim...so near yet so far...hahaha...but my passion is still there, i will keep looking around.

Good news is we closed our first account finally. And you know , my little brother kena 4D !!! 2nd prize...RM3000 !!! lucky bastard him..hahaha..and u know, the number he bought is my 2nd bro's car plate number...hahahahahahahahahahaaa